“To be conscious of yourself, you need to welcome your unconscious darkness as much as you welcome the light.”
–IN SEARCH OF THE MIRACULOUS: Healing into Consciousness by Mada Eliza Dalian
I remember there was a time when I truly believed that I had no “darkness” – I felt that everything I did was “good”! lol…it is worth laughing out aloud! Our ego will have us believe such nonsense!
I had no idea that there were parts of me that existed, that were in fact not so pleasant! (either for me or for others). This is exactly what is meant by “unconscious” – the parts of us that we are not even aware of – but of course everyone around us is painfully aware of their existence.
In some ways this is comical because often I would defend myself in arguments at home, only to have found out over the last six years, how much truth was being pointed out to me! I even remember once claiming “I HAVE NO EGO”…which only goes to show how egotistical I actually was.
But when something is unconscious to you…it is not your fault you cannot see it, and thus it is not your fault that you are behaving that way – by definition you cannot see it BUT as soon as you become “conscious” of that trait, it sure falls away very quickly! No person would willingly hurt another…all such things happen because the person is unconscious…that is the simple fact.
So when Mada asks us to welcome our unconscious darkness – of course that is liberating for both ourselves and for those around us, because as soon as the unconscious is welcomed, it can be seen, understood, and transformed very rapidly. It is like bringing something out from a dark room and you don’t even know what it is…but with a candle in your hand, bingo…you now know what it is, and you can immediately discard it, if it serves no useful purpose.
And as that transformation happens, the net result is simply greater joy, peace and love for yourself and those around you! Consciousness can only ever offer more of these qualities since that is what consciousness is!
I remember back in 2008, I would tremble at the mere thought of finding an “unconscious” part inside me…fear of finding something bad would make me panic intensely. Now I realize that was my “ego” trembling because it knew a part of it was about to die.
Fear can hold us back in life, but of greatest sadness is that it can hold us back from developing and evolving into something much greater and into more and more unconditional love…that is the real shame of fear and its affects.
I am so glad that despite the stomach aches of panicked fear, I did not give in so lightly. That is where my courageous spirit pushed for me to at least take a “look” and experience first hand the benefits of the Dalian Method, because only then could I truly pass judgement on whether there was any true merit in welcoming my “unconscious darkness”.
For me, I know there has been, and I will be eternally grateful for the extinguishing of so many non serving qualities.
